Wednesday, February 22, 2017




  
 
 
 

 
 








 
Moonglow; rabbit tracks; Oldemors lemon cake; twenty-eight inches of snow in five days; illness; candlelight; knitting mittens (May Breezes); cardinals, bluejays, juncos, and titmice at the feeder; fuchsia cactus blossoms; afternoon naps; the daily round of laundry and vacuuming and school lessons; tangled thoughts; bone-deep weariness; dreams of spring gardens and creativity . . . deep winter days. : )

Today the sun is shining and the temperature is in the sixties. The snow has turned soft and gray. Most of it has melted now, leaving behind a sea of mud for the dogs to track into the house. All signs predict an early spring. I'm not sure how I feel about it, especially since the trees don't burst their buds around here until the end of April. An early spring just seems like a lot of anxious waiting for something to happen, and I've had enough of that in my life. I don't want promises; I want to get on with things. 

One of the things I am waiting for is the creative urge to strike. Ideas flit in and out, but nothing takes hold. I am attracted to a wide variety of things and have always been more of a polymath than a specialist. I like to write, draw, paint, garden, bake, sing, photograph, knit, sew, read, and study nature and theology, but lately I don't have a taste for anything. At this very moment, I am unable to read, which is very frustrating (this happens to me periodically--some kind of hormonal imbalance, I think). I want to do something, make something, learn something, but what???

Of course, life itself is creative. Breathing, moving, eating, working--each moment we are transformed and becoming something new, something we weren't quite in the moment before. Mothering is an intensely creative act. So is tending and caring for any living thing. I don't like the way people use the term "wild/wildness" today.  I see it as another crippling psychological message born out of a  movement (neo-paganism). I do not believe that "wild" is better than "domestic" or "tame", nor do I believe that "wild" means "free". Anyone with a dog, cat, rabbit, bird, guinea pig or chickens knows the truth about domesticity, wildness, and freedom. What matters is simply life; its variety, unity of purpose, and glorious movement. Life itself is wild . . . and also domestic. Real love sets us free to become ourselves.

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*When I write (and I haven't in a while) the title of a piece matters. If it isn't right, it can paralyze my entire process. (I stopped using titles on blog posts because of this.) Since shutting down "Home Hum", I've lost my impulse to blog. "Bird & String" never felt quite right to me. That title was a grasp: I like birds, I like to knit . . . thus.  Now, this title: "Inklings" came to me in the early morning light. I woke up with it nestled in my heart.

16 comments:

  1. Hi, Susan! I am glad to see you blogging again. :) That was a lot of snow, for sure, and we got as much as you, I think. And now it's almost entirely gone, and so beautiful today. Your mittens are wonderful!

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    1. Hi Lisa, thank you for following me here. The snow was pretty while it lasted. It has certainly been a mild winter. The mittens were a fun knit.

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  2. So many good things here, Susan! The christmas cactus, Elvis, the bunny. I love that even the lemon cake looks like it's covered in snow. I've missed you, friend.

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    1. Hi Kort, it's good to be "back". Thank you for following me here. I've missed you, too!

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  3. I'm glad to see you back! Interesting thoughts on wildness. I'd love to hear more about that. I think you got all our snow, along with the Pacific Northwest. We've had some crazy weather here. That cake looks so good!

    Brandy

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    1. Hi Brandy, thank you for following me here.♥ We got a lot of snow quickly, and it all melted just as quickly. The cake is really yummy. I will post the recipe (I've transcribed it from Norwegian). I've been thinking a lot about the whole "wildness" thing; I'm sure I will share more of my thoughts in future posts.

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  4. lovely to see you here...so lovely. and what beautiful pictures -- we simply haven't had much snow this winter, which has been a bit odd, in truth. plenty of rain and ice (which is horrid), but little snow.

    everything says early spring here too, but it makes me anxious because i don't quite believe it and i worry for the creatures who depend upon spring temperatures....and for the apple blossoms and the unfurling leaves..*sigh*...but nature always seems to manage despite my fretting. :) xoxo

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    1. Hi Mel, I'm so glad you found me here. I enjoy your blog and your books so much! It has been a very strange winter, hasn't it? I feel just as you do about it, slightly worried for the trees, bees, and birds.

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  5. so so happy you blogged and you found your new forever home. I cannot believe the crazy weather we had, and the endless sunshine! now we are back to cold :) I'm okay with that.

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    1. Hi Karen, thank you for following me here. I'm glad to be "back". The weather has been quite strange.I hope the cold (seasonal) temperatures keep on for awhile longer. It was 77° on Friday, and that was just too much!

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  6. Hi Sue! Love these photos.i know that you mean about being restless. I always know it's Spring when I get the urge to paint or change all the furniture.
    Lots happening here all of a sudden. Letter soon. XOXO

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    1. Hi Liz! Yay, you found me! I don't really like this time of year and the antsy feeling I always get with it, but I am finding "things to do" and ways to increase my productivity. I've taken out some wips that have been languishing in my knitting basket, and I've taken to painting rocks again, LOL.

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  8. Hello there! I am so glad you liked my cake, and that you linked to my blog..
    The cake is a recipe from my gradnmother, and I love the smell of it..
    Nice photos from your home, I hope you are doing well.

    Best wishes, Ida

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    1. Hi Ida! Your grandmother's lemon cake is scrumptious! I've made it twice now, and both times it disappeared. : ) I enjoy your lovely blog and have it in my bloglovin' feed. Thank you so much for stopping by and for leaving such a nice comment.

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  9. lovely to see you in a fresh, calm new place. I like your thoughts on "wild". I use the word a lot because it feels nice in my voice - a synaesthetic thing rather than a philosophical reason behind its use. But I agree with you, domestic is not something to be considered "lesser". And I also agree with you about domesticated animals. They are not deprived of freedom, they are sheltered and cared for. Hugs xx

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